Grieving

Grief is a noun. It is defined by feelings of deep sorrow. The word, “Grief” originates from grever, which in Old French is “to burden.”

Tonight I am grieving. The weight that locks itself onto my sternum, my rib cage, and my gut – I can identify it clearly now. This feeling is grief.

Tonight I am grieving, feeling deep sorrow. Tonight the burden is sitting heavily on my chest. To paint a picture, this grief is a dark gray substance similar to liquid mercury. The heaviness locks itself into the spaces between my ribs. Grief surrounds my beating heart like a vice. Heartache. The weight sinks deep into my gut like an anchor.

Tonight I am grieving. “Grief,” the internet states, is “deep sorrow caused especially by death.”

Tonight I am grieving. Loss, burden, heartache. Death.

Tonight I am grieving small puzzle pieces that made up the whole of who I am. These pieces, these losses, I will never get back. I can never get them back. So I am grieving. I am grieving each time a piece of me died, perished, faded away.

Tonight I feel heartache, real physical pain to my core. I experience this feeling often, consistently. Because I grieve.

I grieve for a little girl

I grieve for a child

I grieve for a young woman

I grieve for them all

I take all of the grief and I heave the burden onto my chest until I can no longer breathe.

I grieve

 

One thought on “Grieving

Leave a Reply to TheUnseenMiles Cancel reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s