Welcome to my site! I’m grateful you’ve taken the time to read my words and hear my story.
My name is Olivia (Liv) and I am 23 years old. I grew up in Mountain Home, Arkansas and attended the University of Arkansas in Fayetteville. Fayetteville remains my favorite place on the planet. Here, I attained my B.S. in Public Health and met my best friends and biggest mentors. I changed my major a total of 4 times in 4 years – Music education, Nursing, Social Work, then Public Health. I know that what I truly want to do is help and empower people and make a positive impact on the world. But I’m still working on finding out just what that entails (and how to get paid for it).
I have a golden retriever puppy, Beau, that holds my entire heart and soul. We love being outside, running, and exploring new places. I love art, writing, reading, and running.
I moved to Oxford, Mississippi in July of 2018 to pursue my Masters Degree at Ole Miss but took a medical leave to seek treatment for an eating disorder, depression, and PTSD at the Renfrew Center of Florida October 18 – December 3rd. I am not sure what my plan is for the future, but I do know that I would like to be happy and free of the burdens that have held me back for so long. I want to help people and make the world brighter.
Most of my life I have been very quiet. My biggest defense mechanism is silence and passivity. I keep a lot of things on the inside. But I learned the hard way that this is not good for my mental health. So as I have started to process and heal from the things I’ve been through, I realize that my story is powerful. And I don’t want to be quiet any more. I kind of want to scream all of it out into the universe now.
This blog is what I use to process, heal, and share my story. This is where I’ve found my voice. I hope that you can learn or gain something from my words. Or that they are able to help you in some way.
I have also made this blog a safe place for anyone who has ever felt like they did not have a voice. If you have a story that you’d like to share, read my post Letters to Liv. If you’d like to read the stories of others, check out Freedom (A Letter to Liv) and April Fools (A letter to Liv). I would love to share your story for you.
I suggest starting with part one of my story and reading the posts in order chronologically, as if reading chapters of a book.
And Part six is a message to others that they are not alone.
Strangled is my reaction to the Kavanaugh vs. Ford hearing.
Guilt is a piece I wrote while I was at Renfrew while I was learning about the importance of feeling ALL of the emotions.
Anniversary is an account of the few months leading up to me seeking treatment at the Renfrew Center of Florida.
My posts about my eating disorder recovery and time at Renfrew follow. If you want to know what treatment was like through my perspective, read about:
Day 1 – the day I was admitted to Renfrew
Rational – My internal battle between rational and irrational thinking.
How Did I Get Here? – The evolution of my eating disorder from childhood to now.
Positivity – How my strength of positivity helped me through trauma, struggles, and treatment.
Planning – Processing plans in the few weeks after I discharged from treatment.
Moments – little moments that bring me joy in every day living.
Punctured – What happens to a punctured balloon?
Dreams – My dreams at night always try to tell me something.
If reading these posts brings up anything for you and you need an unbiased ear to talk to, email me at firstname.lastname@example.org and we can set up a time to talk. If you need help finding resources in your area, I can try and help you with this too. I’d love to hear your thoughts and feelings in the comments or by email as well.
I want everyone who reads this blog to know that you are brave, you are loved, and you are enough.